You asked me what I want...

Moonlight on Trout Lake with my Sister

You asked me what I wanted and I can answer that.

I want to have fun, be happy and write until words pour out of every pore in my body, indiscriminate writing, about anything and everything. I want to be around people who live their life to the fullest, who want to make a difference with their words, not just spout words because they are so full of themselves or their egos. I want to be around people who love so intensely their love hurts them from the inside out because it wants to burst out and color everything around them. I want to love like that with no concern about how much, or what it's worth, or who deserves it, or what I can get out of it. That's how I wake up in the morning, how I prepare food for the people I care about, why I sing a soulful song for a friend, or dance on the beach to the music of the pounding waves, or laugh and burst with happiness when I hear "ashes to ashes and dust to dust", or listen when a loved one cries when they're hurt. That's what I want. I want my books about girl friends to bring my family together, so my sister can get a break and my sister-in-law and see her worth in the world around, and my brothers can look at each other and see how much they care.

It may sound silly for me to think these childish thoughts, 

but there they are, 

they motivate me to care, 

they bring me somewhere, 

where I want to be, 

with people who can see into each others eyes 

and be real in the moment 

with themselves and each other,

the best of who they are.